Web Log 18
Wednesday, April 30
If God is for us, who can be against us.
Cliche? ya. True? Absolutly. Easy to remember? Not a bit of it.
I am guilty of praying, ernestly, and praying some more, and eventually falling into a mindset of thinking that things are just going to be the way they are. Assuming that this problem or that problem isn't going to get addressed.
Then they are days like today. When I was dreading every aspect of the day, but it became apparent very early that God had actually been listening, and actually cared, and was able to do something about the messes, is actually in control. Today has been an eye opening reminder that God is Sovereign and on my side.
He does things in His own way and in His own time, but He does not turn a deaf ear to our concerns.
Todays topic at CoffeeHouse was "Help, I'm being PulledAwayFromGod". Good stuff from GeorgeDakin!
Tuesday, April 29
I finally decided my mail filtering system (maildrop & a custom bash baysian thing) was getting too clunky and installed spamassassin. So far so good. I will need to hack it up again for some baysian action, but it seems to be a fairly clean way to do the basic header checks etc.
Listen. Do you hear what I hear? Can you hear the angels singing? Can you hear our God saying, "I am here."? Sometimes (ok most of the time) I am just not quiet enough to hear that stuff. Every once in a while I slow down long enough for the dim to grow clear. Often that is in prayer, sometimes in song, sometimes by myself in the mountains. Tonight it happened while praying with a friend - I let the presence of the Holy Spirit just be there, and speak to me, and then later looking at the stars I almost forgot what I was doing - there was a song on the air that I could feel rather than hear. Remote but very beautifull. I cannot wait for the day I stand before my savior and get to join the heavenly choir and they teach me that song. A song of life, hope, redemption. A song that rings through all creation, as Aslan's song in Narnia, yet we so rarely hear it.
Ok so if your not feelin' me totally on that point, if your thinking I'm rather a cook - thats ok. Tell me so. See ContactMe. I'll probably respond with something along the lines of this - that it all starts with TheGospel, and once you have that hope and promise as your own, there is then truth in the Psalm that says "Be still and know that I am God".
In other great things today - I have those crazy addition plans plotted and in hand. Whoooppppeeee.
Monday, April 28
So I've had one of those jobs that was supposed to be done a month and a half ago, and was actually done about two weeks ago and I still haven't plotted it out and gotten it to the customer. So as long as it's monday I figured I'd plot it out and be done with it! Ya right. Cannot open plan -- some mixup in ChiefArchitect versions. Bother and confusticate it all.
I got so frustrated with the whole situation I had to get out for a while, so I took the jeep up portland mine road into the ampatheatre. I was just able to get through the last snow banks and all the way to the top. Jeep season is around the corner!
My new bible showed up tonight at the post office. I lost my long time friend a couple weeks ago and have been scrounging around since. I finally decided the only way it was going to show up was if I bought another one. Since I've always wanted a spanish-english parallel bible, I figured now was the time. Now it's just a matter of time before the other one will show up!
Sunday, April 27
It is so frustrating sometimes that I cannot make my mind work how it should. The closer I come to walking in The Light, the more I see of my sin. If I was sensible I would ballance that with a proper realization of what Christ did for me on the cross, but I fail to do so and I wind up either in despair or puffed up with pride. Either way, I fall out of the light and into my own way and am open to the bait of satan again.
The other problem with walking in the light is that it means war. Walking in the Light means walking upright between the flanks of open war between Jesus and Satan. I know that I have protection that will not fail as long as I keep behind it, but it does not mean I will not be attacked. The enemy of my soul will do anything to get to me.